I am currently working with a stable of about 4 teachers in my world that inspire me... Whos' classes I go to for more than a great experience... Whos' work inspires me. And today; as I walked into this particular room, I realized I wasn't sure why she stood in front of us.
Don't get me wrong, if anyone has the right to stand there is is her. I don't think twice about her commitment, integrity, interest and knowledge.
But I don't know her WHY
I trust it
And now I'm curious
I'll either ask her one day, or figure it out, or not.
The real opportunity is to bring it back to my teaching, my WHY. To remember and clarify the reason or reasons I chose to show up, and as far as reasons go I've got plenty. My reasons are personal, and important. My reasons offer constant inspiration and valuable reminders.
I teach because I was once quite overweight and unhealthy, and worked hard to create change in my own body. I teach because its possible, and its my desire to show up for others who desire to do the same. I teach because I understand what its like to be lost and confused about your body and where you fit in the world, and movement can help. I teach because, and this I know from experience - and plenty - there are more effective ways than drugs and alcohol to deal with that wandering feeling. And while all paths still lead to God, maybe I can help make the trip a little shorter. And, probably I teach because I'm a little full of myself, believing I have the ability, when given the opportunity, to help others find their most effective path.
I teach because I truly believe that people like me need a community. People like me need to know its okay to be people like us. We need to feel safe, and heard and loved and valuable. We also need to be held accountable; because being like me doesn't mean you are better off disengaged.
I teach because I haven't always felt 'taught to.' Because I spent so much time trying to find ways around, when the way was right through. I teach because I spent so long looking at my path and self as sub-something; at my choice as BAD, at what I had to change and fix and cut out like an oncologist looks at a tumor, looking at my own IS-ness as something to better - When ultimately the work is to learn LOVE it.
So now I teach a love of it all. I've spent my time immersed in the minutia because every inch of us is beautiful. Every muscle, of value. Every misstep informative. Around me, in this 'fitness' world I see so much shaming and 'better-than-ing' and it is my crusade to open the dialogue of inclusiveness. To change the conversation from Fitness to Fullness. To turn out work into an art of revealing out best selves. To stop the constant movement of searching outside ourselves and start the process of uncovering revealing, owning, loving, including, exploring
I teach because I feel a connection to students who have a desire to learn. I teach because I feel connected to students who have a desire to learn. I teach because I'm passionate about clearing up the ambiguity and confusion. I teach because when I'm really connected to those in the room, I remember that I've never been otherwise. I teach because that very same connection is what I call God.